RIP Delboy Dad.....
Four years ago today I lost my best mate and wheeling and dealing partner, I lost my delboy dad....
12 years ago I lost my wee mum and I remember at the time my life was already on a major downward spiral, mayhem was coming at me from all directions along with the height of my drink and drug addictions it was the worst time of my life!
All my own fault though, I made the choices and I suffered the karmic repercussions!
I moved back into the bedroom where I grew up after loosing everything with nothing to my name and I lived with my dad for years after that right up until he passed...
Looking back now it was all meant to be, I got years of precious time with my delboy dad and he probably needed me more than ever after loosing my wee mum....
On his last days my dad was just the same happy go lucky soul as he always was, he said to me, "I got everything I wanted in life, I got to play poker in America, I've lived the life of 10 men, I'm happy with that," he said.....
My dad loved his westerns and he grew up watching them always dreaming of going to America and playing poker like the cowboys and how lucky was he to find someone like my wee mum who loved poker also, both of them went to America every year for years to play poker, cash game poker on Indian reservations too, they wanted it old school and off they went every year with me tagging along from a child round Arizona, Nevada and California staying in crazy motels here and there just so they could play poker, my mum and dad gave me a very unusual childhood but it was amazing!
I remember when I was burying my dad in with my mum I visualized the seed of the lotus flower being planted with them and one day would flourish and become the new me, I think they've germinated it well, if they could see me now running around barefoot planting and chanting!
Love and miss you both every day....
#phantomplanter
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