45 today!

 45 today guys!!

I remember years ago in my buyers of anything sellers of everything superstore I had this man who worked for me who I called Big Wig, he had a head of hair on him that put the Jackson 5 to shame.

Big Wig used to call me Mad Dog. 

He worked for me from I was around 25 till about 30. Right at the peak of the madness in my life he was there. 

Everyday was party time at my store back then, mini casinos out the back with a massive furnace on the go all day burning the stuff we couldn't sell and all sorts of other dodgy goods it was good for getting rid off. 

I made a driving range at one of the shutters and had the neighbours tortured with golf balls bouncing about their driveways. 

I could write a book about this place. 

We sold everything from double decker buses to speedboats. 

And we boasted the largest bric-a-brac section in the world I would have said.

It was a massive warehouse filled with everything from years of house clearance. 

The police came to raid the place once and they were there for 12 hours searching. I heard one of the policemen say to his sergeant that its just not possible to search everywhere here. 

I couldn't stop laughing when the detective set his book down and couldn't find it. The whole search for about an hour turned into the police looking for the missing detectives book.

I was winding the police up laughing saying, you've no chance in here of finding it, I set things down all the time and never find them. Its like playing where's wally in here when you set something down trying to find it again I said.

Back then though I would have popped speed tablets ( dextroamphetamine) as soon as I woke with coffee, then around 10am got the beer on the go and after lunch it could have been champagne and cocaine. Everyday I was lit and this went on for years.

Big Wig used to always say to me 

"Mad Dog your never making it passed 40 the way you run around".

"Your a walking heart attack" 

he used to say..

Big Wig hadn't got much going on up top, he was not the brightest of people to be honest. 

He used to drive me mad!! On one occasion we did a job, I got paid £300 to clear a house, came back to the warehouse and as I was offloading the van I sold some of the stuff for £600 that we just got paid to take away and Big Wig said in front of the customer, thats some profit after just getting paid £300 to take that rubbish away! 

I was close to pulling his Big Wig off his head that day. 

But that was him, not much going on up top.

Though him always saying I would never make it passed 40 always stuck in my head. He was right!

When I hit around 35 I had in my head that I need to be clean by the time I'm 40. No way can I go into my forties with a toxic lifestyle like I had. I used to watch all the other headers like myself who had the lifestyle like me and when they got to they're 40s it was coffin dodging time. 

Or running around full of spare parts and missing limbs.

The toxicity was literally seeping out of me back then. My skin bled with dermatitis, I had boils in my spine used to ooze with puss ( I know its disgusting but its the truth) I couldn't breathe right my lungs were clogged with smoke and coke. 

I remember I used to have to hang from one arm trying to open up air pockets in my lungs just to breathe. When I felt I got an air pocket it was another line of coke and a smoke. (INSANE)

My heart was always playing up also and my back was so messed up I used to regularly walk around lopsided. 

Then there was the mental side of things living like this. Anger, agitation and aggression, which got me into a lot of trouble at times.

I had lost faith in the medical system back then to help me, all they seemed to want to do was butcher and drug me even more. I'm sorry this may not sit well with some but thats how I felt at the time. 

I then opened my mind to the spiritual side of life and the way of the Buddha and yoga.

Today everyday I wake is a blessing. 

"Father of creation 

Mother of nature

I'm truly grateful for the body you have given me 

May I nourish it, respect it and always look after it 

so I can be the best I can be and benefit this world and everything in it"...

I say this prayer most days. 

Peace and love 

I'm off to do some handstands here. 

The Phantom Planter