Lost my gallop

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 Good morning guys, 


For the past while I haven't been myself. Lost my gallop as my Delboy Dad would have said. 


I've been going through a break up after 2 years and it stings! 


I loved this woman and still do love her. I always joked with her that I was going to write a book about her called Karmic Result. 


Honestly though, the dream woman I've always thought of she was it and more. 

She also brought out a different type of love and affection in me I never knew I had. 


I messed it up though and I'll have to live with it. 


Cant thank her enough though for one of the most beautiful experiences in my life. 


Going to head into celibate monk mode here for a bit and get a grip of my emotions. They are bit f**ked right now. 

From experience the last thing I want to be doing when feeling like this is self soothing or self gratifying. That just prolongs the pain and healing. 


Also some selfless service karma yoga in means of tree planting will help also as it was a great healer for me in the past. Time to get planting and chanting! 


Ps this pic her daughter took, she was telling me how to pose and which way to look. 

Great memories I've had with her and the kids and not to forget about the dogs and cat. You were all my little piece of heaven. My Karmic Result. 


But Like everything in life its impermanent, nothing lasts forever as she would have said. 


Some people come into your life to really confront your own inner s**t. She was it. Thank you. 


Love you all always. 


Peace and love 


The Phantom Planter


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